Well here I sit once again... At the office... Thinking... Wondering if it a good thing for me to think so much... My brain tends to run away with me when I think...What I am thinking now is everyone's search for perfection or that someone perfect which will sweep them off their feet. Unfortunately up until now I have been hugely dissapointed in my quest for the perfect one...
Got out of a 6 month relationship. Almost immediately after that I almost entered another which just let to major dissapointment... In relationships and flings and potential friendships you only really get to know the real person after 4 months. The first few months everything seems great because your in love or whatever and it seems like your on cloud 9. Wait till you get dragged down to cloud 0 which is Earth....
My fellow blog reader that is when the shit starts to hit the fan... You realise things about your partner/friend that now all of a sudden irritates the living shit out of you. You constantly fight over bullshit... You look for reasons not to see the other person... They suspect your lying which your not and then things just spiral out of control...
In all honesty - there is no such thing as perfection. You think you might find it when you search for it but all you will find at the end of the road is someone that is normal just like the rest of us who will accept you for who you are and not someone/something that they want you too be... I know that is what I want - someone to accept me for me - but there are honestly not that many men left in Cape Town who see this the same way as I do. It's all about the looks for the most men in Cape Town...
I know this doesn't make sence because in all honesty... It doesn't make sence to myself either... Guess the picture that I have in my head is much more clearer than the one I tried to make or the words that I tried to type....
But this blog post is about reviewing the day.... Well how was my day so far? Quite good actually... We decided at the office that we are all going to Cubana on Saturday again and I smoked like 14 cigarettes today already... Not good I know but hey.... Rather smoke that be dissapointed right?
When was the last I actually really kissed someone? O god... Lemme think
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30 days people.......................
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