Anyways....
Today is Saturday.... A day that most of us look forward too.... Woke up at around 1:30 in the afternoon which is probably the latest that I have ever woke up on a Saturday...
Switched on my phone only to find out that I had 34 SMS'es on my phone... 34!!!! Read through the messages, smoked my morning cigarette and then went of too Canal Walk to pay my accounts... I thought that I was only going to pay my accounts but the moment I walked past Edgars, Musica and Look & Listen I couldn't resist to go in... Two hours later I maxed out my Edgars account again - I finished paying it today and now I have to start all over again...
After Canal Walk I went to a close friend of mine and stayed there for a while... She only found out last week that I'm gay... It's very amusing to see how the straight world out the reacts to us gay people. First question I always get asked is if I'm the man(top) or the woman(bottom).... Ppl... It doesn't matter... Why does one always have to be classified as a man or a woman... For fuck sakes... If you have a penis then your a man... If you have a vagina then your a woman...
Had the most fun telling her that I can convert her current boyfriend.... Was laughing the whole time... Honestly... But she is a very close friend of mine and I wouldn't want to do that to her...
I went home... Did some work... and then on MSN to chat too some friends of mine...
It's funny for me how some people can change in the matter of a few days... I know because I am one of them... I go through change every day... My biggest obstacle of every single day is depression... I tell you... Once I conquer that monster I will be able too do anything I want... I honestly don't know what I'm depressed about but a friend of mine told me that the only way one will be able to beat your depression is when you know what it is that is making you depressed... Guess I still have to find out what is causing mine...
I can't wait till tomorrow... My mother wants to take me to breakfast... Guess she also has some questions...
Was going to go out with friends tonight but then they couldn't go so I am at home now chatting too my friends on MSN and watching HitMan... What a load of SHIT!!!
This post is about change so let me talk about change... When is it good too change? When do you say enough too change? Am I changing for the better of worse?
In all honesty I wish I could answer all of those question but I have yet too find the answer. All I can say is this... When you change, or if you are contemplating change... Do it for yourself and not for a loved one or because someone asked you or said something to you. The reason I say it is because if you do the change for someone else and not yourself then you are going to have too live with that descision for the rest of your life... Trust me... I have changed alot and most of the times they were because of stuff that someone said etc but they turned out horribly... I ended up pushing away my friends and family... At the end of the day that person left me and here I am STILL trying too mend the ties with my friends and family...
Anyway... I'm off again....
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