Thoughts from my balcony

In life we have to choose. Choose what we win and choose what we lose because as we all know – we can’t have it all. You will get hurt, you will break down and the world will throw you off course and knock you off your feet. It’s all part of this thing called life. So what do we do? Do we run and hide or do we face life, regardless of what obstacles it throws in our way.

Am almost afraid to say this but I am proud of the man I’ve turned into since I’ve been in Johannesburg which to my surprise is almost a year. Have learnt so much and been through so much, some sad times, some great times but overall one excellent journey. The things I’ve learnt whilst I’ve been here, although having experienced most of it alone, I don’t mind because I know that I would have never have gotten the chance to experience it was I still in Cape Town under my parents safe guard and always protecting me.

Had my heart broken once again but to my surprise I picked myself back up much quicker as opposed to the previous time. Like they always say - Things happen for a reason. It’s like a chess game and we are all pieces on the board.

Through it all I’ve become a much stronger person and regardless of what people tell one and what you may think. We as humans are beyond strong and can almost overcome anything.

Some of the saddest things I’ve experienced so far this year were:

- Being in love alone
- Although having your heart shattered into a million pieces you still love that person with every last piece
- Suffering and worrying what you will eat the next night and if you will have enough money.
- Becoming a recluse
- That only 2% of the gay community is actually worth my time
- Got drunk

BUT some of the best things I’ve experienced were:
- Conquering my fear of heights
- Making myself happy and not relying on someone else to give it to me.
- Getting a new job where I am appreciated
- Getting out of my uptight skin and went clubbing and danced for the FIRST time ever ...
- Got drunk
- Got my own place :) :) :) :)
- Bought my own car :) :) :) :)

That is just some of the best and negative things I’ve been through this year and I know that this will not be the last but I am prepared.

We just have to be aware of how we approach situations and not just look at it will tunnel like vision. We have to see it from different perspectives because assuming is making an ASS out of U and ME.
I’ve accepted myself, where I am and where I am going and let’s just say right now at this point in my life I am fulfilled and happy and things couldn’t be going better ...