Feeling . . .

Time now is 3:30 . . . I sit here in the office, music blasting my ears to shit but at least I don't have to listen to the people moaning and groaning . . .

Have stomach pain - I think I might have eaten to much today - I feel like a glutton today. Had 4 bottles of Coke today - can feel it affecting me but not to the extent that it used to. My eyes feel like they are going to pop out of my head - I should really find my glasses and start wearing them . . .

My brain so full of useless shit today that it's not even funny - so much to concentrate on.

Feeling numb today again - noticed lately that I feel despondent and just developed a attitude of "dont care" . . .

I will come right I keep telling myself . . . I think it's the first step towards making your life better that's the hardest to do . . .

Such a stunning song it is that Shayne Ward sings in "What About Me". Some of the lyrics goes like this . . . . .

He gets pushed around

Knocked to the ground

But he gets to his feet and he says...

What about me

It isn't fair

I've had enough now I want my share

Can't you see I wanna live

But you just take more then you give